Lately I have noticed I have had zero motivation for just about everything! Sometimes I think it is because of my work schedule that leaves me in no routine and drained with zero energy. This wilted flower is what I feel like! HaHa!
I tell myself I need to work out on my days off, but I can’t seem to find the motivation to actually make it to the gym, which is literally around the corner from my house-I could walk there. I’m embarrassed to admit this, but I will, to show the lack of fire in me. One day I got my gym clothes on, and went to drop off Stella at my parent’s house (yes, they are her dogsitter when I’m busy!) and when I got there, I just stayed. I somehow, talked myself out of going to the gym. I was dressed and ready! How does that happen!?!?
When I get to the gym, I also have a hard time staying long enough for a good workout. If I had a partner to force me to go, and force me through a workout I know I would do it and enjoy it because I actually like how I feel when I leave, it’s just so hard to get myself there. I guess I feel I just need someone there to basically “hold my hand.”
In high school I was a year ‘round swimmer and felt great. I had practice most nights of the week and in the summer I had practice four mornings a week. I would love to be in better shape again and just be healthy. I have noticed a few pounds added here and there, and my metabolism is changing. These mid-20’s is what those changes start to happen! So, I need to get a grip on this now!
Another example:
As soon as I was able to talk my dad asked me this phrase at least once a week, if not more: “Where are you going to college?” And when I was old enough to have friends over, this was the second question he asked them right after he asked their name. He asked everyone he ever met (of my friends), this question until the day I graduated high school. So, college was understood. And I finished college, no problem. But, now the problem is advancing that education.
I have been thinking about going back to school. Again, I don’t have the motivation. The only reason I’m even thinking about it is because my manager at work says I should/need to. A lot of girls I work with are in the DNP program (Doctor of Nursing Practice) and they know exactly what they want to do with their career. I, however, do not. I know I do not want to be a Nurse Practitioner, but beyond that I don’t know what I WANT to do with my career. I’m perfectly happy with what I’m doing now. If in the future I want a job change, my current degree may hinder me in getting a different job, so I should go back to school now, but the direction I go is a big question mark.
Again, my lack of a routine and procrastination is keeping me from having that spark and desire to apply to school and get started right away!
Does anyone else feel out of sorts or lack any desire and motivation?! Any suggestions of how to suddenly get some motivation would be greatly appreciated!
I would love to feel like these flowers!
Or this guy: that keeps going and going and going...
