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Wednesday, April 18, 2012

the time I contacted Millionaire Matchmaker





Yes, I really did! And then I took matters into my own hands! 

A couple of years ago I was watching Millionaire Matchmaker on BravoTV and on this particular episode there was a VERRRYY good looking guy who happened to be my age and live only a state away-maybe 3 hours from his city to mine. During the episode I thought he seemed like a great guy and down-to-earth!


How cute is he!? Totally date-able!

So, I contacted Millionaire Matchmaker and told them I was interested in meeting this guy! I got an email back the next day that said if I wanted to meet the Millionaires I needed to sign up with the agency and go through the selection process. I really wasn't into that since it's based in LA and I'm about 3000 miles away. 

I decided to take matters into my own hands! 
Who's not on Facebook these days?! {Remember when it was just limited to students in college? And it required .edu to start a www.THEfacebook.com page? Well, that's a whole 'nother issue...} Getting back on track...I went straight to my computer and signed on. I typed in his name and there he was! Just a cute on FB as on TV! I only sent a friend request. Nothin' too craaaazy! Sometime later he had accepted and sent me a message. I was ecstatic! We messaged back and forth for a while. We talked about UK basketball, his team-which we won't discuss ;/ , Keeneland, and our families. His mom is a nurse, too! So much in common, TRUE LOVE!

Here's one of our first convos:



Last summer I contacted him letting him know I would be in his city visiting a friend. I thought we could all get together for dinner {strange? I think not!}, but sadly, he was going to be out of town for work. Later, he contacted me again and invited me to his lake house over Labor Day weekend. Sadly,{again}, I had to work the entire weekend. {We work 3 day blocks on the holidays} So, I couldn't go at all. :(  Can we say bad timing?!

One day we will meet, my future husband! 
{this one isn't married like this one- did you see, he got married this past weekend :( }

What extremes have you gone to for a guy!?

Monday, April 16, 2012

weekend fun

This weekend was non-stop and full of fun! Here's the proof! 
Keeneland was full of guys and gals dressed to the 10's and racing bets made! 
We unfortunately did not win a dime :(
However, fun with friends is always a win!

Later, we surprised Brittany with a 30th Birthday party. Her friends from out of town and us here in town have been planning arrangements for weeks-date, gift, party, Keeneland day, etc. It was a huge success! I was so excited to meet all of her friends from college also! Can't wait to see them again.

All the cute party decor was planned by the fab Miss Katherine. I looked like it came right off a Pinterest board! It was a party I sure hope to have one day!

the Lex girls

our bet was on #4, we lost :(

Later in the evening, I left the surprise party for a short time to support my sorority at an event they had, an alumni silent auction. All of the money raised went to St. Jude Hospital. It was so fun! In college there was a group of boys called the 'Acustocats.' They are a small group who sing with no musical accompaniment-just use their God-given voices. They are unbelievable! They were at the event and serenaded a lucky alumna. Brought back so many college memories! 

It was a great weekend spent with friends and I couldn't have asked for a better group of people to spend the weekend with!

Monday, April 2, 2012

You don't want me as your navigational guide.

Remember last week when I told you of the wedding I had to go to in Louisville the day of our Final Four game against Louisville?! Well...it was quite an experience, let me tell ya! For future reference, you don't want me to be your directional guide, or for that matter, you don't want my GPS as a guide either!

I got off work at 7:30 AM Saturday morning, had my bags packed in the car, clocked out and drove straight to Louisville. I got to my grandparents house in record time. There was ZERO traffic and no police on the road {they had more important places to be on this day...downtown LEX and LOU} so I kicked the speed up to mid-80s. My grandmother had scrambled eggs and toast for me. I ate it and talked to my grandparents for about 10-15 minutes then headed to bed. I only slept 4 hours. And if you know me, you know I sleep A LOT, and need it to function. So, I got ready and then typed in the address to the church. The wedding was at 4:30pm.

Granddaddy and I. He's in his UK shirt!

I'm heading downtown and listen to Ms. GPS European accent telling me where to turn. There is a portion of the road where the church was that is walking only--4th St for those familiar with downtown Louisville. I obviously couldn't park there, so I had to find an alternate street/garage. I circled a few times looking for street parking and kept hearing,"Recalculating, Recalculating." Then she says,"turn RIGHT on 5th St." As soon as I turned right, i realized cars were coming TOWARDS me! A biker looked hysterical and motioned for me to turn around! Luckily I had room, and made a U-y. She's now not so trustworthy!



By now it was 4:15. I was stressing because I like to be "on-time" per etiquette to weddings 30 minutes early. So, I just parked at the next spot and decided to start walking in my high heels! I walked all the way around the block looking for the address 321. I started at 300 and the block ended at 400. And there was NO church. Just the bar district. I had on my UK BLUE dress and was by myself in the crowd of red. Luckily, no one heckled me! I guess I had on my, "I mean biz, don't mess with me" face!

Just before I got back to my car one of my earrings fell out, I stepped on it, and broke it. Not a good day.

I got back to the car and looked at the invitation again. I. COULD.HAVE.DIED. The address was 821, not 321. So much for my glasses helping my eye-sight. Or the print was just too small! I headed that way, but it was already 5:00. I wasn't going to walk into a service that was almost over, so I decided to just go drop off the gift at the reception hall and come home. She was having a cocktail hour after the wedding before the reception started {so they could take pictures} So, I would've had to wait a while to see her.

After all that effort to get there, stress about the rival fans, not getting there on time, and my favorite earring breaking, I was devastated. I cried in the car on my way home. I hope Shea didn't notice or will find this story funny, one day.

One positive thing...at least I didn't fall in my high heels in front of all those drunk people!

I used to think I had a pretty good sense of direction, "used to" being key words. 

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

in a rut...

Do you ever feel like you're in a rut? Lately I've felt that way, especially here. I could go into a whole different tangent about life, but I'll save that for another day! I've felt like I've not had too much to chat about or share on here or had the energy to do so. 
Hopefully, I'll get my groove back! 

Anyways, a few weeks ago a friend had a baby shower for her sister and I quickly said I wanted to help with the decorations. Here are a few pictures from the shower and of what I made! It was so easy and cheap! 

cake pops, Jamie made. So yumm-y

And of course I don't have a pic with the mommy to be...

Last week was my mom's birthday! 
My sister and I went shopping and got her tons of goodies...



wee bit blurry...
So...there's a baby shower and a birthday party from the past couple weeks.
I've been working...EVERY WEEKEND...so my social life is NON-EXISENT
:(

I missed one of my best friends' celebratory dinners and I'm going to miss a going away party for another friend this Thursday. Sometimes my schedule...SUCKS. 

More of a catch-up on life to come, and hopefully less of a blogging rut...
thanks for sticking around!


Saturday, March 3, 2012

the storms

Last night, there was a huge line of storms that spanned North to South in the midwest. It traveled east across 5-6 states and destroyed so much. So many people lost their lives, loved ones, and homes.

My parents wanted me, their oldest and favorite daughter :) at home with them in case we needed to go to the basement with the storms heading our way. I had to work last night, so I slept at their house all day.  My dad had taken my car back to my house and left it in my garage so it wouldn't get hit with pea-sized, golf ball, tea-cup, soft-ball sized hail. {If you live in central KY, then you understand the different sized hail humor...thanks Bill Meck!} When I woke up, he drove me home quickly so I could shower, and he could grab fast food for dinner. My grandparents and aunt were also at my parents for safekeeping. Sister was with her BFF in a friend's basement--they were let out of a work class early and headed underground!

I packed a quick "overnight" bag of my things to get ready for work. I also grabbed a few valuables to keep at my parents in their basement. Ya know, I couldn't lose my computer--it has my documented memories on it--aka pictures!! And I grabbed a pair of earrings my parents got me for graduation. They have sentimental meaning! Annndd...they were expensive! If I could've run out with my 60inch TV I would've grabbed that too! {Wouldn't that be a sight!?}

When I got back to my parents I quickly got ready for work and realized I had forgotten my volumizing hair rollers! AHH! What's important here!? Big hair or safety!?



So, I was almost done and my mom yells at me to come downstairs! They had seen the rain start to swirl out back. So scary. I've never had to go in the basement for this eery of weather before! After it settled, we all went back upstairs and listened to more weather reports. Luckily, Stella is not afraid of thunder...she's a trooper! We stayed in the basement for about 5-10 minutes for the rain and dark skies to pass and then went back upstairs.

Thankfully, my other grandparents who live in Louisville, KY were safe and untouched by the horrendous weather. I also have family right across the river in Indiana, who were also safe. {There was serious damage in S. IN}

At work we were on a mass causality alert. We were admitting patients from all over the state where other hospitals were at max capacity. It was a crazy night! People were admitted with no identification/name, and no idea how their injuries happened. I hope their families find them soon!


via online webiste.
Neighborhood a few miles away from mine



photos taken from www.Kentucky.com

I was so saddened to hear reports of the destruction in Indiana and West Liberty, Ky. There were other towns that were hit too, and my thoughts and prayers go out to all the families affected everywhere.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

My future hubby is engaged :(

I was so bummed today when I found out that my future hubby is engaged. 
{Although I think I'm a month behind on this news} 
You all know Dave from Lady A, well, he and I are friends, in real life. Well, I'm not sure what he would call it, but we were in my cousins wedding and communicated via Facebook once last year. I'd call that friends, wouldn't you!?

At my cousins wedding we sat together at the wedding party table and chatted for a while about his future plans of moving to Nashville and me being a nurse, etc.

True love.

Proof:

In all seriousness, he's a great and genuine person and I wish him all the best. {Just like I did with his singing career...and now look at him, winning Grammys!}

The real future wife:


Ahh...I guess I'll have to move on to the next lucky one!

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

mean girls

Last week I received the meanest email of my life. I've never had so many harsh words said to me ever in my life. I didn't know what to do. I think I even went into a mini-depression. I've never experienced real clinical depression, so I don't know what it's like, but from studying it in school, and seeing real symptoms in other people, I think I manifested a few of the classic symptoms! 


My symptoms:
Random Crying
Besides just at home, or in the car, some friends and I were out in public for a birthday dinner and I was still letting the NASTY-GRAM get to me {2 days later.} I was not in the peppiest mood, as I should have been-it's a birthday celebration for Heaven's sake! I tried to put on my smile and hold back the tears. My therapist {my Bestie CAF} had to put on her therapist cap once again and talk me through my moment. 


Staying in bed all day/sleeping
It was September 1-2, hot sunny days! I slept most of Thursday because I worked Wednesday night, and usually I am up all night, but this time I went right back to sleep about 9pm and slept all night. My mom called me Friday to see if I wanted to go to the pool {one of the last open pool days.} Usually I would've bounded out of bed and put on my suit...but I said no and...you guessed it, I went back to sleep until 4pm. So add it up and it's about 27 hours of sleep in a 30 hour time period. I sleep a lot, but not that much!


Letting it consume all my thoughts
Since the minute I opened the email, I quickly allowed myself to believe the words in the email were true. I had to go to work the night I received the nasty-gram and I wasn't busy at all. You may have seen my tweet hoping I was busy. Sadly, I wasn't. So, there were 12 lonnnggg hours for me to mull over the harsh words. And again there was the dinner where I let it bother me in public and around strangers.


After the B-day dinner I randomly ran into the sender of the nasty-gram downtown {which I think was designed by the Big Guy upstairs because I rarely/never see this girl out downtown.} Well, we exchanged an odd smirk, and went on our way, and then met again later. TWO TIMES IN ONE NIGHT!? This night just had to be designed so we would talk. Long story short, we discussed the reason for the nasty-gram and she apologized for sending it. I hope her apology was sincere. 


I consider myself a nice person and have never had any issues with girls. Being nice just makes the world a better place to live in. Why be mean? I tend to be even-keeled about a lot of issues. I like the "no-drama" mantra. What's the point? It just makes things more stressful and that's not a way to live. I saw two tweets this week that are 100% relevant and came through my feed at exactly the time this was happening...


I don't believe or pay too much attention to astrology, just think it's fun to see how accurate or off it can be. However, this one seemed to accurately describe me.


Thankfully I had a great therapist who told me this person was out of line and the words were the farthest thing from the truth, and many more positive things :) Although I appreciate wholeheartedly all the supportive words and reinforcement of my personality and character, it still didn't help 100% pull me out of my slump. The apology from the sender helped the rest of the way. I guess I needed to hear it from her and know she didn't mean what she said at all.


I'm also thankful for the "I've-got-your-back" friend who was there to be on my defense/strong side and show toughness for me. And to whip out a kick or a right-hook...or more if need be! A kiss on the cheek also helped! {remember that? haha}


Thank God for friends to be therapists and your defensive-line and anything else you need them to be to pull you out of a slump.

Monday, August 22, 2011

"A 4 hour tour...A 4 hour tour..."

This past weekend I went to visit a sorority sister and friend, Katherine, I met in college who lives in Indianapolis. I had never been to visit her, so I thought, why not?! Perfect time! She has recently ended a relationship and has been livin' it up, and so I went to LIVE IT UP with her! That's right...us single girls need to cherish this time together!


Katherine planned a dinner with a few other friend's of hers in Indy at a restaurant called Sensu. It's an Asian fusion-type restaurant that was participating in something called Devour Downtown. Apparently it's just a way Indy showcases different restaurants with a 3-4 course pre-fix menu at a discounted price. It's a fabulous deal, I must say! Great way to bring in new business!


So, let's discuss our dinner {cue Gilligan's Island theme song tune}:

"Just sit right back 
and you'll hear a tale, 
A tale of a fateful trip
That started from this res-tau-rant 
At the Sensu."
{ok, not that great, and I'm 2 syllables short, but I'm not that creative at 11 AM after work-just go with it}

There were 9 of us for our reservation at 8:00pm. We were there at 8:00pm sharp! Soon after we were seated, a table next to us with 8-10 people were seated as well. And up the stairs next to us a table of 10-12 were seated shortly after as well. All 3 of these tables had the same server...OURS! with NO HELP! Poor planning on the restaurants part. The poor girl had no help bringing new rounds of drinks, bringing out each course of food...and there were 4 courses for 9 people! {for our table...+ 3 tables.} We waited at least 20-30 minutes in between each round of drink/food. Towards the end of our meal two of the guys at our table were a little..let's say...per-turbed. So, they talked to a manager. He agreed with us that is was not our server's fault {She was great and tried her best} and we were amazed by the food! He graciously took off $10 and a drink from each of our bills! Hopefully they learned from our experience and gave their severs more help!


In the meantime...
"For a four hour tour...for a four hour tour..."
drink numero uno




A Katherine story...

A Katherine story...

Drink numero...?

Silly face, Katherine demanding course #3?

This is what happens when you are there for 4 hours...

That's right, we were there for 4 hours. 
8:00pm-12:00am

"A four hour tour...A four hour tour..."

By the end of the night strangers were best friends!

Monday, July 25, 2011

Update!

Well, I've been on a little unintentional summer blog hiatus and I do have a lot to fill you all in on, but i wanted to share some exciting news first! You may remember from here my friend and co-worker Kim was recently diagnosed with Stage 3 lung cancer. 


She went through 6 weeks of chemotherapy and radiation. Thankfully she tolerated the grueling full 6-week treatment and this past Thursday, July 21, she had body scans to see how the treatment worked. 


The results were...drum roll please...
...the tumor is much smaller, mostly necrotic (dead) and she does NOT have any metastatic cancer to any other organ/part of her body!

reminder of original tumor:

God truly does answer prayer and is Good

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

45 seconds

My grandfather sent me this e-mail Sunday. It's a letter from an ER doctor who was working the day the tornado hit in Joplin, MO. It's very touching to see one person's view of the event's that day and just how everyone helped out in a true emergency; a mass casualty event. I don't think on paper {or a computer screen} it can truly recount the devastation that day, but it shows how people truly care about each other and will do everything in their power to help one another. Working in an ICU, I have experienced "crazy" nights, but nothing like this. Unimaginable.


45 Seconds: Memoirs of an ER Doctor from May 22, 2011. 
My name is Dr. Kevin Kikta, and I was one of two emergency room doctors who were on duty at St. John’s Regional Medical Center in Joplin , MO on Sunday May 22,2011. 

 You never know that it will be the most important day of your life until the day is over.  The day started like any other day for me: waking up, eating, going to the gym, showering, and going to my 4:00pm ER shift. As I drove to the hospital I mentally prepared for my shift as I always do, but nothing could ever have prepared me for what was going to happen on this shift.  Things were normal for the first hour and half.   At approximately 5:30 pm we received a warning that a tornado had been spotted. Although I work in Joplin and went to medical school in Oklahoma , I live in New Jersey , and I have never seen or been in a tornado.  I learned that a  “code gray” was being called.  We were to start bringing patients to safer spots within the ED and hospital. 


 At 5: 42pm a security guard yelled to everyone, “Take cover! We are about to get hit by a tornado!”  I ran with a pregnant RN, Shilo Cook, while others scattered to various places, to the only place that I was familiar with in the hospital without windows, a small doctor’s office in the ED. Together, Shilo and I tremored and huddled under a desk.  We heard a loud horrifying sound like a large locomotive ripping through the hospital.  The whole hospital shook and vibrated as we heard glass shattering, light bulbs popping, walls collapsing, people screaming,  the ceiling caving in above us, and water pipes breaking, showering water down on everything.  We suffered this in complete darkness, unaware of anyone else’s status, worried, scared. We could feel a tight pressure in our heads as the tornado annihilated the hospital and the surrounding area.  The whole process took about 45 seconds, but seemed like eternity. The hospital had just taken a direct hit from a category EF-4 tornado.


 Then it was over.  Just 45 seconds.  45 long seconds.  We looked at each other, terrified, and thanked God that we were alive.  We didn’t know, but hoped that it was safe enough to go back out to the ED, find the rest of the staff and patients, and assess our loses.


“Like a bomb went off. ”  That’s the only way that I can describe what we saw next.  Patients were coming into the ED in droves.  It was absolute, utter chaos.  They were limping, bleeding, crying, terrified, with debris and glass sticking out of them, just thankful to be alive.  The floor was covered with about 3 inches of water, there was no power, not even backup generators, rendering it completely dark and eerie in the ED.  The frightening aroma of methane gas leaking from the broken gas lines permeated the air; we knew, but did not dare mention aloud, what that meant.  I redoubled my pace. 


 We had to use flashlights to direct ourselves to the crying and wounded.  Where did all the flashlights come from  ?  I’ll never know, but immediately, and thankfully, my years of training in emergency procedures kicked in.  There was no power, but our mental generators, were up and running, and on high test adrenaline.  We had no cell phone service in the first hour, so we were not even able to call for help and backup in the ED.


 I remember a patient in his early 20’s gasping for breath,  telling me that he was going to die.  After a quick exam,  I removed the large shard of glass from his back,  made the clinical diagnosis of a pneumothorax (collapsed lung) and gathered supplies from wherever I could locate them to insert a thoracostomy tube in him.  He was a trooper;  I’ll never forget his courage.  He allowed me to do this without any local anesthetic since none could be found. With his life threatening injuries I knew  he was running out of time, and it had to be done.  Quickly.  Imagine my relief when I  heard a big rush of air, and breath sounds again;  fortunately,  I was able to get him transported out. I immediately  moved on to the next patient, an asthmatic in status asthmaticus.  We didn’t even have the option of trying a nebulizer treatment or steroids, but I was able to get him intubated using a flashlight that I held in my mouth.  A small child of approximately 3-4 years of age was crying; he had a large avulsion of skin to his neck and spine.  The gaping wound revealed his cervical spine and upper thoracic spine bones.  I could actually count his vertebrae with my fingers.  This was a child, his whole life ahead of him, suffering life threatening wounds in front of me, his eyes pleading me to help him..  We could not find any pediatric C collars in the darkness, and water  from the shattered main pipes was once again showering down upon all of us. Fortunately,  we were able to get him immobilized with towels, and start an IV with fluids and pain meds before shipping him out.  We felt paralyzed and helpless ourselves.   I didn’t even know  a lot of the RN’s I was working with.  They were from departments scattered all over the hospital. It didn’t matter.  We worked as a team, determined to save lives.  There were no specialists available-- my orthopedist was trapped in the OR.  We were it, and we knew we had to get patients out of the hospital as quickly as possible.  As we were shuffling them out, the fire department showed up and  helped us to evacuate.   Together we worked furiously, motivated by the knowledge and  fear that the methane leaks could cause  the hospital could blow up at any  minute. 


 Things were no better outside of the ED. I saw a man crushed under a large SUV, still alive, begging for help; another one was dead, impaled by a street sign through his chest.   Wounded people were walking, staggering, all over, dazed and shocked.   All around us was chaos, reminding me of scenes in a war movie, or newsreels from bombings in Bagdad .  Except this was right in front of me and it had happened in just 45 seconds.  My own car was blown away.  Gone. Seemingly evaporated.  We searched within a half mile radius later that night, but never found the car, only the littered, crumpled remains of former cars, and a John Deere tractor that had blown in from miles away.

Tragedy has a way of revealing human goodness.  As I worked, surrounded by  devastation and suffering ,  I realized I was not alone.  The people of the community of Joplin were absolutely incredible.  Within minutes of the horrific event, local residents showed up in pickups and sport utility vehicles, all offering to help transport the wounded to other facilities, including Freeman, the trauma center literally across the street.  Ironically, it had sustained only  minimal damage and was functioning (although I’m sure overwhelmed).  I carried on, grateful for the help of the community.   At one point I had placed a conscious intubated patient in the back of a pickup truck with someone, a layman,  for transport. The patient was self- ventilating himself, and I gave instructions to someone with absolutely no medical knowledge on how to bag the patient until they got to Freeman.


 Within hours I estimated that over 100 EMS units showed up from various towns,  counties and  four different states. Considering the circumstances, their response time was miraculous. . Roads were blocked with downed utility lines, smashed up cars in piles, and they still made it through.


 We  continued to carry patients out of the hospital on anything that we could find: sheets, stretchers, broken doors, mattresses, wheelchairs—anything that could be used as a transport mechanism.


 As I finished up what I could do at St John’s , I walked with two RN’s, Shilo Cook and Julie Vandorn,  to a makeshift MASH center that was being set up miles away at Memorial Hall.  We walked where flourishing neighborhoods once stood,   astonished to see only the disastrous remains of flattened homes, body parts, and dead people everywhere.  I saw a small dog just wimpering in circles over his master who was dead, unaware that his master would not ever play with him again.  At one point we tended to a young woman who just stood crying over her dead mother who was crushed by her own home.  The young woman covered her mother up with a blanket and then asked all of us,  “What should I do?”  We had no answer for her, but silence and tears.


 By this time news crews and photographers were starting to swarm around, and we were able to get a ride to Memorial Hall from another RN.  The chaos was slightly more controlled at Memorial Hall.  I was relieved to see many of my colleagues, doctors from every specialty, helping out.  It was amazing to be able to see life again.  It was also amazing to see how fast workers mobilized to set up this MASH unit under the circumstances. Supplies, food, drink, generators, exam tables, all were there—except pharmaceutical pain meds. I sutured multiple lacerations, and splinted many fractures, including some open with bone exposed, and then intubated another patient with severe COPD, slightly better controlled conditions this time, but still less than optimal.


 But we really needed pain meds.  I  managed to go back to the St John’s with another physician, pharmacist, and a sheriff’s officer. Luckily, security let us in to a highly guarded pharmacy to bring back a garbage bucket sized supply of pain meds.


 At about midnight I walked around the parking lot of St. John’s with local law enforcement officers looking for anyone who might be alive or trapped in crushed cars.  They spray painted “X”s on the fortunate vehicles that had been searched without finding anyone inside. The unfortunate vehicles wore “X’s” and sprayed-on numerals, indicating the  number of  dead inside,   crushed in their cars, cars  which now resembled flattened  recycled aluminum cans the tornado had crumpled  in her iron hands,   an EF4 tornado, one of the worst in history, whipping through this quiet town with demonic strength.   I continued back to Memorial hall into the early morning hours until my ER colleagues told me it was time for me to go home.  I was completely exhausted.  I had seen enough of my first tornado. 


 How can one describe these indescribable scenes of destruction?   The next day I saw news coverage of this horrible, deadly tornado.  It was excellent coverage, and Mike Bettes from the Weather Channel did a great job, but there is nothing that pictures and video can depict compared to seeing it in person. That video will play forever in my mind. 


 I would like to express my sincerest gratitude to everyone involved in helping during this nightmarish disaster.  My fellow doctors, RN’s, techs, and all of the staff from St. John’s .  I have worked at St John’s for approximately 2 years, and I have always been proud to say that I was a physician at St John’s in Joplin , MO.    The smart, selfless  and immediate response  of the professionals and the community during this catastrophe proves to me that St John’s and the surrounding community  are special,.  I am beyond proud.


 To the members of this community, the  health care workers from states away,  and especially Freeman Medical Center , I commend everyone on unselfishly coming together and giving 110% the way that you all did, even in your own time of need. St John ‘s Medical Center is gone, but her spirit and goodness lives on in each of you. 


 EMS , you should be proud of yourselves.  You were all excellent, and did a great job despite incredible difficulties and against all odds.
 For all of the injured who I treated, although I do not remember your names (nor would I expect you to remember mine) I will never forget your faces.  I’m glad that I was able to make a difference and help in the best way that I knew how, and hopefully give some of you a chance at rebuilding your lives again.  


 For  those whom I was not able to get to or treat, I apologize whole heartedly.

 Last, but not least, thank you, and God Bless you, Mercy/St John for providing incredible care in good times and even more so, in times  of the unthinkable, and  for all the training that enabled  us to be a team and treat the people and save lives. 

Sincerely,

Kevin J. Kikta, DO
Department of Emergency Medicine
Mercy/St Johns Regional Medical Center, Joplin , MO

You never know that it will be the most important day of your life until the day is over.


Friday, June 3, 2011

a little thing called cancer

Kim and I started working together four years ago. A couple months ago she was diagnosed with lung cancer. She is a great nurse, friend, mother, etc. She is married to Chuck who is a wonderful husband to her. They have a little girl Natalie and she has 2 stepchildren. This is an interview of how she found out she had a little thing called cancer and her thoughts related to it.
Kim and Natalie
Q: Can you tell us the events of how you found you had cancer these past few weeks? How it was discovered? What type of caner it is?
A: I was a severe asthmatic as a child but hadn't had any problems since 1998. So about a year-and-a-half ago when I started having trouble breathing and some wheezing, I figured it was just my asthma resurfacing, especially since we had just gotten 2 cats for the kids. I started seeing an asthma & allergy specialist and we started working on my breathing. It had improved some, but still wasn't great. In March of this year, both Natalie & I had been sick with a cough and all that. She then developed a temperature of 104* and was diagnosed with pneumonia. After a Z-pack, she was on the mend. My cough only worsened so I went to the doctor just to rule out pneumonia. She wasn't concerned, but ordered a chest x-ray just in case. A few hours later she called and told me I needed to follow up in a week or two because I either had pneumonia or a mass. Being a person with connections, I had a friend, a doctor, at work look at the x ray. He tried to be positive, but we knew I needed a CT scan. I ended up having to go to the ER for the CT scan, but that's another story...I had the CT scan and it was a fairly big mass considering. I was then seen in the Pulmonary clinic by a great doctor & friend. She told me it could be infection, cancer or a benign growth. I had a PET scan and then met with the multidisciplinary cancer team. It was decided that I needed a mediastinoscopy and bronchoscopy to check for lymph node involvement. If there was none, the mass would be removed, then tested for cancer. However, as it turned out, it was cancer & there was lymph involvement in the subcarinal nodes. The pathology report says adenocarcinoma. Stage IIIa. It probably started 3-4 yrs ago.
two different scans



Q: Did you have symptoms?
A: As I said above. Strangely enough, I consider myself lucky that Natalie had pneumonia. Isn't that terrible?
Q: Do you have a family history?
A: My maternal grandfather died after a bout with lung cancer, but he smoked...A lot. I don't. 
Q: What is the treatment going to consist of in the coming weeks?
A: I was approved for a clinical trial so I'll be receiving 3 chemotherapy drugs once a week for 6 weeks. They are Carboplatin, Paclitaxel and Panitumamab. Boo to the side effects... I'll also be receiving radiation 5 days a week for 6 weeks. After these 6 weeks, if there is residual disease it will be treated with stereotactical radiation and possibly surgical resection. Sounds great, huh? 
Q: What has been the scariest thing for you so far?
A: Reading the survival percentages for stage III lung cancer...Not good. Facing death is scary. The whole situation. The side effects of the chemo don't scare me. Being dead scares me...
Q: What has been the hardest thing for you so far? (if different from previous question?)
A: The effects on my family. Having to explain to Natalie. Not being able to comfort my mom. Its all been hard.
Q: How has Chuck been showing love and support to you?
A: Chuck is AMAZING. I can cry when I want, sleep when I want and do whatever whenever I want. He knows all about the treatments and has the information down. If I develop a side effect, he already knew it was possible. He insists on being with me for everything. He talks to my mom and dad about the hard stuff when I just can't do it...He's a constant source of positive support.
Q: What do you hope to learn about yourself?
A: This is a hard question. I know myself pretty well. I know I'll fight this til there's nothing left.... But can I look good doing it?? Lol. Probably not with the baldness & acne (thanks Panitumamab for making me feel like a sophomore in HS again.) 
Q: Do you have a quote or bible verse you want to share that has given you strength?
A: Many of my (fabulous) friends have sent me bible verses and they have all helped. But the one that means the most to me is one that we all know. "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for thou art with me." 
Q: What advice can you give to others who might be going through the same thing?
A: I'm definitely not a source of advice. I don't even want to get out of bed sometimes. Just fight. My friend Amanda M, a true blessing from God, said "you're just going to fight this. When you take the chemo just think "beat the crap out of the cancer." Thats what you're going to do." so that's what I've tried to do...
Q: How has the support from friends and co-workers been?
A: Absolutely overwhelming. I may have cancer, but I also am surrounded by the most amazing people on earth. I don't even have time to type out everything the wonderful people at UK have done for me. I feel very special and have NO doubt that people love me. I also have been blessed with friends outside of UK that mean the world to me. It has been very humbling to realize how much people think of me. I'll never forget one single kind word or gesture. 
Q: What are you going to do with you hair?! and what are you going to wear on your head?!
A: I was going to shave it immediately because the thought of hair falling out on me in the shower & sticking to me makes me sicker than the chemo. But then she said it might not fall out for 3 weeks. So then I let Natalie dye it blue & red. It didn't turn out like the picture and actually only turned blonde & red. I've left it that way for a few days. I think I'll shave it soon though...Ugh. Loose wet hair. I'm gagging right now. ;) I'm not too terribly worried about being bald... It's not having eyebrows that bothers me. Oh, and I bought some cute things from headcovers.com!
Kim and I at a friend and co-worker's wedding
Morganne, Kim, and I at our friend's wedding
Neurosurgery Nurses' Night Out!
Neurosurgery Christmas Party 

Love you Kim!