Wednesday, February 2, 2011

wilted flower to energizer bunny???

Motivation, or Lack Thereof...
Lately I have noticed I have had zero motivation for just about everything! Sometimes I think it is because of my work schedule that leaves me in no routine and drained with zero energy. This wilted flower is what I feel like! HaHa!

I tell myself I need to work out on my days off, but I can’t seem to find the motivation to actually make it to the gym, which is literally around the corner from my house-I could walk there. I’m embarrassed to admit this, but I will, to show the lack of fire in me. One day I got my gym clothes on, and went to drop off Stella at my parent’s house (yes, they are her dogsitter when I’m busy!) and when I got there, I just stayed. I somehow, talked myself out of going to the gym. I was dressed and ready! How does that happen!?!?

When I get to the gym, I also have a hard time staying long enough for a good workout. If I had a partner to force me to go, and force me through a workout I know I would do it and enjoy it because I actually like how I feel when I leave, it’s just so hard to get myself there. I guess I feel I just need someone there to basically “hold my hand.”

In high school I was a year ‘round swimmer and felt great. I had practice most nights of the week and in the summer I had practice four mornings a week. I would love to be in better shape again and just be healthy. I have noticed a few pounds added here and there, and my metabolism is changing. These mid-20’s is what those changes start to happen! So, I need to get a grip on this now!

Another example:

As soon as I was able to talk my dad asked me this phrase at least once a week, if not more: “Where are you going to college?” And when I was old enough to have friends over, this was the second question he asked them right after he asked their name.  He asked everyone he ever met (of my friends), this question until the day I graduated high school. So, college was understood. And I finished college, no problem. But, now the problem is advancing that education.

I have been thinking about going back to school. Again, I don’t have the motivation. The only reason I’m even thinking about it is because my manager at work says I should/need to. A lot of girls I work with are in the DNP program (Doctor of Nursing Practice) and they know exactly what they want to do with their career. I, however, do not. I know I do not want to be a Nurse Practitioner, but beyond that I don’t know what I WANT to do with my career. I’m perfectly happy with what I’m doing now. If in the future I want a job change, my current degree may hinder me in getting a different job, so I should go back to school now, but the direction I go is a big question mark.

Again, my lack of a routine and procrastination is keeping me from having that spark and desire to apply to school and get started right away!

Does anyone else feel out of sorts or lack any desire and motivation?! Any suggestions of how to suddenly get some motivation would be greatly appreciated! 

I would love to feel like these flowers!
Or this guy: that keeps going and going and going...


  1. Winter makes everything so hard to stay motivated!! Go back to School do it! I am going to start studying for the GRE soon, we can be study buddies :) and Pure Barre is free your first time and they have a Feb special, 3 classes for $30 bucks! We are going girl.

  2. I can totally relate to how you feel. I just got a personal trainer, and I've already noticed a big difference in my motivation/energy. I did the exact things you did...get ready and not go or just go and not really do anything. But she is pushing me and motivating me to push myself, and I can already tell a difference in my energy, motivation, and mood! Let me know if you want her info :) She's reasonably priced :)

  3. I am so glad to see that someone else is having trouble getting & staying motivated. Winter does that to me every year! Don't feel too guilty girl... I don't even belong to a gym, much less get up & get ready to go to the gym!

    You'll figure out a {further} career path soon enough... Don't rush it, just let it happen & when the time is right you'll know! :)

  4. I understand completely!!!!! I have felt the same way I come home from work knowing that i need to hit up the gym and yet somehow I talk my self out of it...all bec I don't have a gym buddy or anyone to hold my hand as you put it!!! Winter blues I tell ya!

  5. I know exactly how you feel. After work, I'm just completely drained. I would love to still be in high school to actually have the time to work out and feel healthy again.
    By the way, I love your blog, especially the title :) Very Cute! :) I'm a follower now!